When I lost my job a few weeks back, I was convinced for a time that I had lost my identity. Not because of the type of job I did per Se and not because of how I lost it, but because of what I did meant to me, what my job stood for, or rather what I thought I stood for by doing it. Herein lies the danger when you mix an incredible amount of passion with your J-O-B.
This is not to say that you shouldn’t be passionate about what you do. In fact they say if you love what you do then you will never work a day in your life. However, there should always be an italicized cautionary fine print at the end of that statement. Because there will always be those at the end of the day who are jealous of what you feel in your heart that they can never understand.
So back to the job, the day-to-day inner workings of my place of employment were not what mattered so much, it was the bigger picture, what I was working towards, that I felt in some way defined who I was, made me useful. I poured three years of my life into it, giving everything I had to it. I was making a difference.
In the end, it was those silly day-to-day bureaucratic things however, that became the wedge, a tool for those petty enough to use it.
Since that fateful day; What I have discovered though, through many days and longer nights of reflection is that my passion for conservation of wildlife, and on a grander scale, of conserving this planet for those that will come after me has not been dampened. My job, as spectacular as it was, did not define who I was. I brought everything I had to it and made it better, not the other way around. I briefly shared my gifts with some incredible like-minded individuals and at the same time learned much to add to my arsenal for the future.
I will continue my work in one way or another simply because I have too much left to do to just quit as I feel that some wish that I would. I am not going to go quietly into the night, not when there is so much work to be done yet.
I do know that I will never again be defined by a career or a job. I am defined by my passion for creating a better world, for helping others be they man or beast and by my love of this beautiful planet that we have been assigned as caretakers for, for as long as that may last.
Thank you to those who listened and helped me see the light. You know who you are.